Saturday, March 17, 2012

too late

Sometimes it just feels too late. That what others don’t seem to get. They still think theres hope, it can happen, you never know. And that may be true. But also true is the fact that even if it does come, its coming close to twenty years too late. Yes I may get married. Iyh I hope to someday have kids. But I will never have my youth back. will never be a young mother, chasing her kids. Will never have the luxury of bringing my kids to my parents. Will never look at anything with the same fresh attitude as a young wife in her twenties. Can happiness still come? Yes. Will it be great and perhaps even better than for some who married young? Absolutely. But the fervent hope that things may change for me does nothing to undo the years of hurt that I have endured.


  1. I agree. Here's a depressingly honest article someone showed me a little while ago:

  2. that is fascinating! thanks for sharing. feels more validating than depressing.

  3. Being young and married can be difficult too. "Same fresh attitude" of a young bride is not a given. Because they got married young, they don't always necessarily appreciate it. They may even downright resent it.

    Your attitude may very well be fresher than a 20-year-old bride!

    It's amazing how quickly things turn about. I have quite a few cousins that everyone wrote off, closer to 40 than to 30, then they married and had three kids. (Three seems to be the magic number).